Yesterday I went to an all-day charity
event, which included a lively and comedic “celebrity” softball game and an
outdoor concert put on by local musicians. Because of the multitude of variables
and magnitude sensory input at such an event, I am always apprehensive of the
possible meltdown manifesting.
I swam through the crowd as people
swarmed and bumped into me, changing directions last minute in front of me,
walking too slowly or too closely to me (a philosophy I like to refer to as “the
whole couch” theory). The pleasant smells of sunscreen and hot dogs,
woven with the ominous stench of ketchup, fill the spring air. The beaming sun radiates upon my face,
turning my skin pinkish. Bees bumble
and buzz around my head, searching for the sweetness of sodas and cotton
candy. The cool, refreshing grass of
the field tickles my feet. The commotion
of the excited crowd encompasses me as fans cheer, applause, laugh, and
chat.
This myriad of sounds, sights, and
smells would typically hurl me into sensory overload, culminating in flapping,
rocking, “voicing”, biting my thumbs, and shutting down. But today I was managing myself rather well. Given the circumstances, I suppose one could
say I was “with-it” or having an “on day”.
Loud and unexpected noises rattle
me. Certain pitches and tones wrench my
nerves. But today the speakers were
meticulous in their intonations. The
bass was so profound it was throbbing within my veins, pulsating within my
spinal column. I hungered for the acoustic and the fiddle,
craved the steel guitar that was hitting my sensory sweet spot. I lie down on a soft, familiar blanket and allowed
the music to encompass me. I positioned
my ear on the ground and felt the vibrations through the dense earth below me. As I lie on the ground, a friend applied slow
and steady pressure to my back. Deep
pressure has a soothing effect on me.
Sometimes at home I will bury myself tightly in a blanket, securely
sandwich myself under a mountainous pile of couch cushions, or have a friend
hold me in a firm embrace. As I enjoyed
the music and the sun and the company of friends and family, I rocked back and
forth to the melodies that filled the air, conceding to the rhythm, permitting
it to take over me. By some means this
input helps to reconnect me with the world that circumferences me.
There were occasions throughout the
day when I had had enough. Moments when
I just wanted to tell my crew to pack up and let’s head home. But I endured. I took a walk, away from the crowd, into the shade,
out to the car for a bottle of water and a grapple (that’s my favorite fruit by
the way, an apple that tastes like a grape).
I did all I could to sustain and carry on, enjoying the day with the
excitement of new friends, the comfort of old friends, and the craziness of my family.
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