Imagine
your life without Autism (I know, imagining things that aren’t true are really
difficult for us folks on the Spectrum, but give it a try). Explain how life for you would be
different.
This is a prompt I gave my students a few weeks
back to get them to think about who they were as their character related to
Autism. So, as with anything, I
will never ask my students to answer any question which I am not willing to answer
myself!
Autism doesn’t make me who I am. Yet the experiences I have had coping with
Autism have woven the very fabric from which I am tailored. Despite my struggles, I wouldn’t trade my
being Autistic for the world. I am
blessed, and I am proud of who and what I am.
I am not disappointed that I am not certain things.
Failures have more power to teach us about
ourselves than do successes. The
pitfalls and misadventures of my life have coached me, and I have learned from each of them. Every day we make the choice whether to be
defined by our challenges or to grow from them. It wasn’t until I embraced my individuality
and uniqueness that I was able to truly become myself.
Growing up, if I had known that everything I was
going through, socially and emotionally, as a person on the Autism Spectrum,
would lead me to be the person I am today, I would not have taken the risks
that I took. I wouldn’t have attempted
all of the social interactions that most often resulted in failure. I wouldn’t have LEARNED from those failures,
and in return, I never would have become ME.
And every day as I struggle and fail and (occasionally)
succeed, I am still BECOMING ME. I am a
process, a journey. It may be tough and unfair at times, but it is MY journey.
So those failed attempts at social interactions,
the ones you walk away from feeling embarrassed, ashamed, empty, weird,
strange, hurt, awkward…don’t let them define you. Analyze the situations, and use your
experiences as a tool for growth. Be careful
not to OVERANALYZE. But look at the
closely and gather from them what you could do differently in the future. Create the picture in your mind, but make it
as broad as possible. Chances are you
won’t find yourself in the EXACT same scenario again, but if you are able to generalize
what you have learned from one situation you can apply your newfound skills to
another.
Sure, maybe things would be different. Maybe I would have been better at expressing
my thoughts and ideas, have had fewer meltdown moments, and been able to relate
to others. But one thing is for certain…if
I were Neurotypical I would not be ME.
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